More risk = more reward

I spent $30 on three pairs of vintage men's Florsheim shoes this week. I'd like to do things like this more often: pay more money for things that will make me more money. But when I don't buy as much, I get nervous, and spending more money is always scary. I'm finding that biting the bullet and putting money down is more likely to get me money back in the long run. But it takes risk, and that's not always something I'm willing to do. But in order to get return, I have to take bigger risks (Yikes, I sound like a capitalist).

I'm likening this to my dealings with men. More risk = more reward. The more I risk, the more I put out there, the more good that will come back to me (The more bad will come back to me too, but that's not the point I'm trying to make today).

It's scary. So I falter, and hem and haw, saying that it's better to sell the little things. But think of all the energy I expend, and how little I have to show for it! I go back and forth on this issue a lot, so it really helped me to think about romantic relationships, and moving forward in my life rather than doing the same old thing and having nothing to show for it.

I don't think I can go one more weekend without getting a dog. I held a [human] baby for a while today, and I feel like I'll burst if I don't have something to hold onto and love soon.