Difficult things

I need a new phone. My turns on and texts, but does not call out. I don't know if it accepts calls. I haven't gotten any, but I don't get a ton of phone calls, so that's not that weird. I know I've talked about getting an iPhone, but money is still an issue, and it is a fairly large expense. Also, I am brainless when it comes to purchasing anything of substance. I get overwhelmed by all of the many, many intricate details. So here I sit, not doing anything, because it's not an emergency.

I have a Razor. I have had it for three years, and it was a hand-me-down from a friend. Before that, I had a bulky Nokia, the ones that you had to grasp with your whole hand. I am proud of my lack of need for new technology. It makes me feel less crazy to know I'm not getting caught up in the frenzy. But that's just me; it's a thing about me, I suppose.

The last 24hrs. have shown me an awful lot about myself, things I knew but wasn't really needing to work at, or work through, things I just thought were a part of me, that are now getting in my way. That's a hard pill to swallow: the realization that something you thought was an essential part of you is something that is hurting you more than helping you.

That's probably one of the most difficult things to throw away.