Decisions, decisions

I'm very particular about decision-making. I do things because they are "the right thing to do". This may get me into trouble at times, but I've never felt bad for trying to do the right thing. When I was a kid, I listened to Adventures in Odyssey from Focus on the Family Radio, and there was a show about this topic. The conclusion of the show was: You can do the right thing for the right reason, the right thing for the wrong reason, the wrong thing for the right reason, or the wrong thing for the wrong reason. This really stuck with me. So for me, the right reason is always the goal. Of course, the right thing is preferable to achieving that goal, but the wrong thing will suffice.

Sometimes the voice in my head tells me to do things that seem weird, out of character, or rather, very much in character (just the crazy, neurotic character that I regularly try to downplay). Oftentimes, this voice does not go away until I do the thing, and then I find out how great it was that I chose to do it, how much I learned, how great it is for the Kingdom of God, blah, blah, blah. But that intermediary space totally freaks me out. "Why am I having this thought?" I ask myself. "Am I subconsciously trying to sabotage a relationship?" This wouldn't be out of the question. I've been known to do this quite often.

Lately the voice has been telling me to tell someone something, and I'm not even sure about the specifics of the something, just the generalities. And the telling is not bad for anyone. No one would be harmed in the telling, but I do have a deep wish that the telling would somehow change my circumstances, at least in the distant future. But the second voice, the "me" voice, says "You're crazy."

What is wisdom? How does one find it?

On a lighter note, when it comes to wisdom in the realm of thrift, I have again proven myself to be flush with it. A friend needed clothing yesterday; we went to Goodwill; she got shorts; I got tops. Mission accomplished. Ten minutes. Also, we'd just met. So yeah, I assessed her size, style, and ideal look-for-body type that quickly. I'm so awesome.