The beauty of a snoring dog

You know how when your life is crazy, but it's manageable, and then one thing gets added and the whole structure topples down? Yeah, that's where I am right now. Everything was going along at a steady clip, and then I got a paper, and everything ground to a halt. I'm tired; I'm cranky; I'm not in love with this paper. I am stuck between two worlds, the professional world and the student world, and my brain is having a lot of trouble with the latter.

I was so concerned about my weekend of paper writing that I drove across town to borrow the dogs. One is snoring right now; it's a blissful sound. I miss them so much, but now that they're making way through my tiny place, I remember that having them here would be impossible, and that I enjoy not having to care for anyone but myself.

Some people think that singleness is selfish, but that's just not the whole picture. Singleness can be a choice, just like any other relationship choice. And it can be done out of obligation, or it can be done from a place of need or desire. At this place in my life, I am needing to be alone. And it's a good thing. Maybe someday that will change, but right now, my cranky self and I would like to be alone with the dogs.

Also, I slept way better last night with them here.