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Today I am considering the idea that failing does not inherently make me a failure. I'm a person who wants to make everything right, do everything well. I don't consider myself a perfectionist. I am capable of letting little things go, and not agonizing over little trifles, but in the great land of "Being an Adult", I am finding that these skills only need to be amplified, strengthened, continually over time. It's not like a plateau we reach, where everything after that is straight ahead without potholes.
Perhaps I never would have identified this as a characteristic in myself, but I have been acting as though I'm finished as a person, that everything should be perfect now that I'm a fully functioning adult. I've been living in an imperfect body, with an imperfect mind, and wearing clothing that is imperfect, even selling things that are imperfect. Yet I have been expecting more from myself than I expect from anyone, or anything, else.
Now I'm going to sit in a pile of my own imperfection and hope it melds with my thrifty self. See you later :)
I'm the worst about this too, got back perfectionist streaks and the worst decision paralysis ever. Very recently I've been learning to let go, posting less polished photos at times, not editing posts as long, letting go of projects so I can focus on less and feel happier. Seems top be working for now. :P I sucks to grow up!
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