My stubbornness is quite strong. It's like I don't think that giving up is ever an option. But it gets me into crazy difficult situations. How do you deal with someone who won't quit? How do you deal with someone who hangs around long after you've told them to leave? When is stubbornness just delusion?
When I love people, I find it very difficult to give up on them. I am also very bad at taking hints. In the past, I haven't read social cues very well. I'm getting a lot better at it now, trusting my instincts and all that, but I probably still fall on the lower end of the social intelligence spectrum. Sometimes I think everything should be simple. Life shouldn't be complicated; relationships should be easy. But that isn't the case, and I do my fair share of making it complicated.
I need some strong-ass hope right now to get through this rough patch. And my version of this is fierce stubbornness, an unwillingness to quit, and a impenetrable belief in a person's ability to change. When I do this to the extreme, I can find myself in the fetal position when all open doors are closed. Is this the best way to live? I don't know. I suppose I should look at the pros and cons of the issue.
When is God speaking, and when is life just sucking at one particular moment? When is a door shut and when is life just hard?
Always. Never. All of the above. None of the above. I don't know.
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I think that, for both of the last questions, it can be both at the same time. But I DEFINITELY think Amy is right about the popsicle and the nap.
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