How about we never say 'Good-bye'?

Wow; it's been a hectic few days. Moving plus out-of-town people to catch up with equals not a lot of sleep, lots of chaos, and weird eating (I'm currently eating my second meal of the day at 5pm. It's a PB&J with a large glass of vegetable juice).

I have been boy crazy lately, not in a bad way, but in a "I'm ready to be done with this" way. That doesn't bode well for anyone who is scared of commitment, or my intensity, but I am unapologetic. Who knew that would ever be possible? I was once so terrified of commitment that telling me you loved me would send me running through the door, likely to never be seen or heard from again. But now, I'm all out there, all the time. "This is how I feel, right here, right now." It's liberating. Someday this will bear some healthy fruit. Right now, it just makes me really proud of myself.

Does this mean I don't care about each person? Absolutely not. I just know and trust that God is in control, and I can be me, all me, all the time, and everything will work out for the best. Again, who knew I would ever end up so optimistic, after so much crap in my life?

I'm ready to put it all out there, take the next step, make a commitment to somebody and make it work. I've stopped thinking that it's rocket science. It's ridiculously hard, but it's hard for everyone. Marriage is hard for everyone. Do we avoid it for that reason, or do we trust that God has intended for us to be hardwired in this way? I'm for the latter. I've been at the receiving end of an enormous amount of God's love, and I'm treating each day as if God's best is in it.

Is this thrifty, or just reckless? I'm not sure. I don't think I'm ready to answer that question quite yet, but I will say this: Just like a good thrift store find, good chemistry with a non-douchebag doesn't come around every day; seize it while you have the chance. Also, put all your crazy on the table. It's best to go in with your eyes wide open.